What would you call me if I was attracted to a guy that looked like a girl, and I want to give him love?

He is so pretty. And I am a guy. As I get to know him, I treat him more like a brother or son. I was first attracted to him because of his looks, I thought that maybe I would have a gay relationship. But now, I dont want any deep relationships because his mind is so innocent that I felt it would be better if I was his friend instead. I decided to stick with finding a girlfriend. But my mind is always on him. That I care about him actually. My question is, am I possibly gay? Is this brotherly love? Is this relationship platonic? Just needed some feedback.